So having babies sucks. They cry, they whine, they make a mess, they always want you to hold them, you have to change their diapers, feed them even when they don't want to eat, pay attention to them when you would much rather be doing anything else, etc.., etc..
Isabelle has been frustrating today, if you can't tell. It's not like she was doing anything out of the ordinary...other than being a little more fussy than usual. But I've come to the realization (as I have many times in the past) that having babies sucks. They demand all of your time and attention and they are really freaking annoying. Patrick and I never get to go anywhere or do anything anymore because we can't take Isabelle with us....or taking her makes the event such a big ordeal that it is no longer worth it. We also don't have any money(...and Patrick works until nearly 10pm six nights a week and promptly falls asleep on the couch as soon as we've eaten...) But even if we did, it's not like we can go anywhere. We haven't been on vacation in forever and probably won't for the forseeable future. Patrick is settling in to his new business location and I'm getting more depressed at the prospect of living here FOREVER. I mean don't get me wrong, I like Texas most days, but it's so stinking hot in the summer....and there are no real trees or mountains anywhere. The "beautiful" scenery is mainly pasture land with a light sprinkling of scrubby looking trees. I don't really like being able to see from horizon to horizon...it's ugly. I want some variation. My sister is moving this week from Everett, WA to Logan, UT. Not that I want to live in Utah, but its depressing because all of my family is pretty centrally located there. I have one aunt in California and one in Minneapolis and then us in Texas. Everyone else is within 8 hours of each other. We're 22 hours away from my parents house. My parents also live in a somewhat isolated town that only has one plane that comes in twice a day. As they are the only airline flying into Cedar they can charge whatever they want...and they do. So flying in to visit is most generally not an option...especially now that we'll have to be buying Isabelle her own seat soon. Driving in to visit wasn't so bad, but now with Isabelle it suddenly becomes much more of an ordeal...we have to stop, we have to get a hotel, etc... So that sucks.
Oh yeah so babies....then right when they start to get old enough that you think maybe they'll be okay and actually enjoy it if you left them with someone, boom, out pops another one...and your available funds drop by that much more...it's a seemingly endless cycle...and since we plan on having 4-5 kids I honestly don't see us getting out to do anything for the next several years. I'm stuck at home watching them (when there is a 'them' right now it's just a 'her') bored out of my mind. I can't get a job because any money I made would just go to pay for daycare and having someone else raise my kids. I don't like that idea as there are a bunch of messed up people with screwy ideas about what a child needs...plus then she/they probably wouldn't get the one on one time they need to develop. But it's not like I spend all of my time devoted to playing with my baby and teaching her things. I mostly try to ignore her unless she gets in my way or screams to the point of distraction. Anyway, she's sleeping now, so this is my "free" time. Two hours out of every day...but there's nothing on tv, nothing on the internet, no movie worth watching or book worth reading so I'm left with twiddling my thumbs or taking a nap. Guess which one I choose.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
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At least you get to see your exercise buddies three times a week! When I don't bail on you that is...heh heh...yeah, I suck. But, on the bright side, out of four kids at least ONE should be successful. Then, you can mooch off them to pay you back for all of this fuss. Yeah...as a bright side it's awfully "maybe" and "in the future". Man...you're totally right. You've convinced me; I'm never having kids.
Man, this is what I've ALWAYS said about having kids! I totally don't understand those women in the church who just LIVE for motherhood. Freaks! But I must say, you really shouldn't dog on Texas, it's a good way to get yourself lynched! I like being able to see from horizon to horizon. Moutains make me claustrophobic. I don't think things should block out the sky like that. :) But back to the kids issue, the idea of having a bunch in a row always gave me the same trapped feeling that it seems that you have right now. Maybe you can get some of that post-partum depression all the ladies are getting these days and off your babies! Yay! But then you couldn't exercise with us, so maybe you should just raise them. I'll babysit for you! No, really! I mean it! Lawrence and I can make out on your couch just as well as his! lol, just kidding.
Okay, so I was in a bad mood when I wrote this...I don't really hate babies or anything. I like Isabelle and I'm sure I'll like the next one too. :) I don't want anyone new who is reading my blog to get the wrong impression...it just happens that I seem more likely to update if I'm annoyed about something and need to vent. Okay that's all. :)
twidling your thumbs? Thats what I would choose. That would be funny if our relatives came and read your blog now. Haha. I'm sorry you're so bored.
I read this one girls blog, she was saying how her girls go to the neighbors for a cooking class once a week, then once a week she teaches an art class to all of them.
I thought, wow thats a good idea! I would never do that.
I understand the whole living far from family part. It stinks, although I admit part of me doesn't mind seeing how much angst some of my siblings get over living in such a close proximity. But I do often feel left out as well. Thus the need for blogs to keep us all updated on what is going on with each other!
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